the bleo problem

so, bleo…
one of its major (but rare) side-effects is permanent lung damage.
so, i take pulminary function tests every 3 weeks, just to make sure.
my last test, i came up with reduced lung functions.
so, im going in for another pulminary function test early tommorow morning (boo early.)
hopefully the test is better this time and the other results where just an anomoly.

the thing that bums me out, is if in fact, my lungs are being damanged, they will take me off bleo… which means i have to take another coarse of VP-16 and Cisplatin in its place…. and thusly added 3weeks to my treatments.

i want to be done with this badly. this chemo is not a fun trip.
but when its over.. it’ll be all

on a lighter note:
steph had a shirt made that says:
(superman emblemb on the front, but a “C”)
“Cancer Survivor”
and on the back:
“One Ball Does it All”

PICC

i got a PICC line inserted today:
http://www.cancerbackup.org.uk/Treatments/Chemotherapy/Linesports/PICCline

it was a minor surgical event… didn’t last long.. im kinda sore at the insertion point, but now i dont have to be poked to death trying to get an IV in.

just got home for day one of this long week of treatments.
im feeling it.
time for a nap

Chemo Schedule 10/30 thru 11/06

Schedule for next week when i be gettin’ the juice.
(address is 1221 Madison, 3rd floor BTW)
sessions usually last 6-8hrs
Mon 10/30 10am
Tues 10/31 9am
Wed 11/01 9am
Thu 11/02 9am
Fri 11/03 9am
Mon 11/06 9:30am (this one is short.. only 2hrs tops)

The odd ralph

ppl ask me alot about the nausea.

well, its not that i have to puke. but its the feeling of being car sick… u know.. u kinda feel woozy.. like your eyes can’t really focus or stay still.. and maybe.. if u tried hard enought, u could puke.. but you wont.

the odd thing is, sometimes i get the feeling like im gonna puke.. but, if i just keep on eating, it goes away.. very odd.

so far.. i only tossed my cookies once.

also, its friday.. im feeling better.
earlier in the week sucked.. but today is not so bad.. went to the park.. walked the dog.. enjoyed the fall.

Chemo dreams

i’ve been having weirddddd dreams.

1. i have a membrane, not unlike fishing wire, coming out of my jaw underneith my ear. I am swinging and flying by this wire around a giant pine tree, high in the air. Swinging, at first many miles away, around the tree by my jaw wire. i slowly wrap around the tree, getting closer and closer. the pull on my jaw is very hard as i get close to the tree, like a teatherball. Until im IN the tree, in a tree house with my family, where i have to stay until someone can get us all down.

2. Steph says i was talking in my sleep about the plants coming to get me.

3. I was a pregnant woman, and this man was going to take a knife and cut my stomach and steal my baby.. but i couldn’t move (of coarse)

4. I dreamt i was on America’s Top Chef, and because i was sick, i couldn’t make my famous salmon dish.

Bleo #3 zappp

i was feeling great today.. . almost 100% normal.. then bam.. the drugsssssss
i feel sooupy again after the bleo… naptime is near.

my white cell count was way down. so they gave me a shot of something.. they called it the “g-shot” (better that then the money shot)
what it does is make your bone marrow juice out more white cells.
so i get two more of these shots over the next two days.
i will feel my bones aching, as they litterally squeeeeeeze out the goods.
kinda interesting.

so, if anyone wants to visit… PLEASE DONT BE SICK and wash your hands

hair

its starting to come out.
finally.. the suspense was killing me.

Thank you™

Also, i’d like to send out a huge huge thank you to all my friends and family.

without you all, i couldn’t imagine going thru this.

the support i’ve gotten from all sides has been nothing but amazing. i am in awe with the love that surrounds me.

again, i thank every single one of my friends and family that are helping me with this.

side-effects

i could go on and on with the side-effects, daily.. but no one probably wants to read them

but in general.. this week has been pretty hard..
the mornings, i feel the best… like now.. i feel decent.

diahrea and gas has been a huge problem.
acne.. massive acne.. wtf.
mouth sores are starting to appear… my tounge looks wierd! (in a cool way)
food tastes are now texture specific. (soft food only pls)
no hunger.. but i can eat.. im a born eater.. so dont worry about weight loss.

uh.. i dunno.. its friday.. week 2 almost done.. 7 more to go..

Bleo #2 done :)

bleo is cake.

its syringe administered. so, no bag dripping for hours.
and its only once a week.

i dont feel as shitty afterwords.
plus i still get all the pre-meds..
steph says i get “randy”
i dunno who the f randy is.. but if he’s touching my wife….. and not sharing pictures…

ok.. one week off from treatments!
maybe i can try to do some work.